Not until I started my psychotherapy training in 2011 did I find a name for the confusing set of symptoms I had experienced since my mid to late teens that were stealing my energy, my joy, my zest for life and my ability to relax and enjoy healthy relationships.
I had already spent many years healing myself using holistic methods such as Reiki healing, meditation and yoga and I had come a long way, but I still had bouts of anxiety, depression, difficulty in sleeping, unexplained physical pain with no identifiable medical cause, chronic feelings of sadness, guilt, and shame and difficulty trusting people and being intimate.
I now know this to be called Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder or C-PTSD also known as developmental trauma.
It is like being permanently on edge as if you are constantly under threat and your system is all fired up with adrenaline to either fight your opponent or run away from danger. There are moments too of feeling scattered, confused and frozen which collectively is known as the flight-flight-freeze response to trauma, be it a single sudden event like a car accident, or prolonged traumatic stress over a longer period of time, often going back to childhood.
The combination of treatments I found most useful for myself are the ones I now offer to treat others, Reiki healing and a broad approach to psychotherapy which takes account of the whole person - the body, mind and spirit.
Recovery is possible.
As I have healed myself so I hold the hope for others to walk this way to greater physical, emotional, mental and spiritual wellbeing.
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
"I have to say from the moment I met Lindsay I felt an instant trust and an understanding and honest bond with her, I found her extremely easy to talk to regarding a number of very personal things and she gave me a very honest reply but not bossy or telling me what I had to do. I left the session feeling a lot better very fresh and invigorated to start again after being very mentally exhausted for a long time."
"Thank you for your openness and honesty and helping me lasso the tyrant in my head, the nagging thoughts of despair and self-pity. I am very proud of the work we have done together and that I can now move forward into a more hopeful future. I am far less doubtful of myself. I don’t overthink things. I trust myself to get it right and if I get it wrong to let it go and move on. Thank you for all your kindness and patience and for challenging me so I made changes screaming and kicking at times. You have helped me retrain my brain."
"Ahead of my first session with Lindsay I was worried as I had never gone to therapy before so was unsure of what to expect. Lindsay reassured me and made me very comfortable and at ease with talking, as I've always found it hard to talk about my worries and experiences. With the almost five months of seeing Lindsay the improvement to my life and mind has been wonderful. I feel my aim of gaining perspective again has happened and I feel a lot happier within myself. From working with Lindsay I now have the skills on how to deal with future events in my life for which I'm very grateful for."
Post-graduate Diploma in Counselling and Psychotherapy – CCPE, London
L2 Award in Counselling Concepts - K College, Kent
Ptlls (Preparing to teach in the lifelong learning sector) - Kent Adult Education
The Way of the Shaman – The Foundation for Shamanic Studies, Prague
Reiki Levels 1,2,3 Master/Teacher - UK, Prague
PgDip Radio and Television Journalism - University of Central Lancashire
BA (Hons) French and Italian - University of Hull